After a week with my family as we celebrated the life of my niece and mourned our loss, it is very difficult to return to the real world. How do you move on after such emotional excavation? At times, the many tributes to this delightful young woman just ripped my heart to shreds and at other times made it swell with joy. Still today, her death leaves me mixed with anger and relief. She suffered so and she needed relief but she had so much more to give us all. Such stupidity to take this child away. We are blessed to have had her as long as we did, but I wish I had been granted more time with her,time to see her share her talents and her grace, her joy of life. So, I will struggle again with death's choices. Peace to you sweet Nora. I will miss you.
So tonight was the Chamber of Commerce dinner. I didn't go last year so I wasn't aware that it was a taste of all the local restaurants and an auction thing. Nice event. I always feel bad when an item doesn't get any bids, so, of course I feel like I have to bid on these items. Thank God, all but 2 of the 5 items I felt sorry for were bid on after me! I'm actually very happy about one of my "winnings" (don't you love it that they call it winning when you have the high bid?!) I got 4 tickets to the local theatre production of my choice with some kind of dinner gift certificate. It was really a good buy at $70!!! This theater has been nominated and has won the "Jeff" (the Chicago version of the Tony) several times. Their productions are excellent! They are doing "Tommy" right now and I have wanted to see that (again!) for ages so I think I'll get 3 girlfriends and go! The other one that I got...not so thrilled, but the donor won't feel bad and that's important. I'll find a place for the deer antler.
Sometimes it's important to just stop . There are small bits that can get lost if we don't pay attention. Things like: marshmallows in chocolate milk, even if it's not hot chocolate s'mores the soft smell of spring at night the music of a little one's squeal of laughter cheese curds a hazy half moon acoustic guitar music bright yellow dandelions in a deep green lawn dinner cooked on the grill magnolia trees and of course, peanut butter cups!